My Story...

My heart could never ache as much as this again.. I'm in a real pain, something I never imagine a girl like me would have to go through it..
There is no one to be blamed except myself.. If I were not that coward, if I'm a little braver and if I'm being myself, I might get all his attention.. Even before that, I already got his attention..
Well, the only beautiful regret was I could not bring myself to confess to him personally..
My instincts told me a lot of things.. I just dare not accept the reality.. Now, I felt all the pains because I am no longer by his side or maybe we just happened to be at the same place and same time a lot of times..
They said, " Both are not fated especially when they are besides each other but never talk nor notice each other's presence"
I always told myself that I just need to take this as a beautiful regret and all I need to do is just to move on.. Looking and sounding amazing in front of friends, I know I could never move on that easily anymore.. It may sounded disgusting, gross to describe that kind of feeling, but there is a smell, a feeling that only he has...